02nd
Feb
Do you ever have these
thoughts in your head that you just really want to write away? As a wife,
reader, book blogger, nurse and woman I have many thoughts going through my
head that I just want to put out there sometimes. Some fit a genre, some
don’t.. and sometimes they are just crazy ramblings in my head that need to
come out. In Maureen’s Little Corner of the World I’ll be sharing some of these
ramblings, ideas, opinions, views and adventures.
Living With Perfectionism

Those who
know me, definitely know that I’m a perfectionist. I don’t do things half, I do
things the best way possible. Even if that means that I set my goals to high
and sometimes lose myself a little in the process. Working hard is something
that I like to do and that I’m used to. Although being a perfectionist can be
nice, it also definitely can be hard. 
And lately
I’ve been trying to do things  a little less
perfect because I was making myself crazy. Being a perfectionist made me want
to do everything in my life perfect. I accepted mistakes from everyone, but not
from myself. I was not allowed to make mistakes. On the outside I probably wouldn’t
admit it, but when I did something wrong I kind of punished myself. I told myself
I was not good enough. I just hadn’t worked hard enough. I didn’t do everything
I could. And a view months back I just realized I was kind of crazy thinking
like that. I didn’t like my job as much, I thought my blog wasn’t good enough
and I felt like I wasn’t a good wife because I wasn’t able to do everything in
the house. And things just had to change. 
And slowly
on, I’m changing things. I work as a nurse 36 hours a week, and when I’m at
home.. I am at home. I don’t check work mail and I don’t read student assignments.
I am a book blogger and try to make a view posts every week, but if I’m too
tired, just one or two posts in a week is good enough. I am a wife, but I don’t
have to do everything at home before my husband comes home, because he knows
and understands that I work a lot too and maybe we can do some house stuff
together.  
I’m trying
to change but it’s not always so easy. For example last week, I was just so
tired I couldn’t make myself making posts for my blog. So I didn’t do it. But I
still felt kind of bad, and like I wasn’t working hard enough. But the big
change is that now, I’m telling myself that I’m allowed to not be perfect all
the time. I’m just one person and nobody is perfect. And most importantly.. I
don’t have to be perfect.