Oct
So it’s been almost a month since I last posted on my blog. At first I thought I would just start posting reviews again.. But it didn’t feel right to not share why I wasn’t able to post. I’ve shared almost everything here on Maureen’s Books these last few years, so not sharing felt wrong.
Maybe you’ve seen it already on my Instagram page.. But on September 20th my amazing, wonderful, loving ‘bonus’ dad passed away. We knew he was sick, and wouldn’t be with us for years. But we didn’t expect him to pass away so suddenly either. He was still walking and driving around on Monday, and on Tuesday the 20th my mom called so I could come over to assist with something. Which, since I am a nurse, was something we talked about earlier. But when I got there, our world stopped. Shortly after I arrived he passed away while my mom and I where holding his hand.
Even though we knew it was coming, we weren’t ready to say goodbye. But would we ever have been ready? These last weeks have been incredible sad and hard. Having to tell my mom he was going to pass away any moment, telling my kids their grandpa isn’t able to come over anymore, having to say goodbye to the man who was more my dad than anyone else. We had a beautiful, emotional memorial service on the 28th and now we have to come to terms with the fact we will never see him again. It’s unbearable to accept most of the time.
And the hardest part is that life keeps going on! It’s the natural way, and he would have wanted us to keep on going and making the best of it. But it is hard. My mom is with us a lot, and together we will make it. But boy do I miss him.
Blogging and reading has been on the back burner for these last few weeks. I’ve never been so behind on my reading, but it’s so not important to me at the moment to be honest. Slowly I’ve been able to start reading again. And this week it’s been for the first time that I’ve wanted to start blogging again. Slowly.. So here I am. First up is checking my mailbox and posting some reviews that I wanted to get done weeks ago. I hope you all will be patient with me.
Grief is the price we pay for love.
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Maureen is a mom, wife, nurse, and Ravenclaw living in the Netherlands. She spends her days juggling mom-life, reading, blogging, planning date nights with her husband and working as a nurse. Maureen also is a big Anglophile, loves cooking, Gilmore Girls, Bridgerton and Harry Potter.. Always! Facebook | Instagram
I am so sorry Maureen. Losing a loved one is always hard. We actually just lost my husband’s mother. She died on September 23 which happened to be the same day my daughter got married. Take the time that you need.
Thank you Carole. I’m sorry to hear about your loss too. It has definitely been a rough time.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. It’s never easy, even when we know it’s coming. I lost both my grandparents to cancer that was discovered later in life. From the time the diagnosis came to when they left us, it was only a few short months. My parents divorced before I was 2, so my grandparents helped my mom raise me and my older sister, so I was very close to them. It still doesn’t feel real that they are gone and it’s been 17 years since my grandma passed and not quiet 10 for my grandpa. I’ll keep you and yours in my thoughts. <3
I am so sorry for your loss, Maureen. Sending virtual hugs.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Thank you Carol.
@Literary Feline. Thank you
Thank you Jessica. What a horrible disease cancer is! And I’m so sorry about your loss as well.
So sorry for your loss Maureen. It is hard when you loss one of your life anchors. Warm and peaceful thoughts for you and your family.
Thank you so much Kimberly. It has definitely been hard.
Oh Maureen, my heart breaks for you and I am teary-eyed reading your post. It is obvious how much he meant to you. I lost my own father 4 years ago and I understand. I’m so sorry he was gone sooner than expected. You are very much in my thoughts and you move on. {{hugs}}
Thank you Tanya. And yes, he meant a lot to us. I miss him so much.
I am so sorry to hear you lost someone you loved so much. You are right, life goes on, but grief remains. I lost my husband to cancer almost 6 years ago (only 5 months after he was diagnosed) and I still have teary moments. Hang tight to those you love, share your memories and talk about him to anyone who will listen. Those are things that helped me move forward. Hugs to you, Maureen.
Thank you Carla. And I’m so sorry to read you lost your husband. I can’t even imagine how hard that must be. Next to being so sad about losing my dad, I’m so sad for my mother as well. Losing the love of her life.. Horrible.
Maureen, sorry for your loss. It’s never easy losing a loved one.
Thank you Nadene.
So sorry for your loss.
Thank you Kella.